Parkerb005's Blog

I Want To be a writer?

parkerb005 — Wed, 10 Nov 2010 10:21:09 +0000

As I sit here, staring at this blank sheet of paper, (while I should be studying mind you) I can’t hep but feel the need to write something down. Something. Anything! It is like the page is calling out to me, screaming my name. “Parker, write something! You’re a writer for goodness sake!” But what on earth do I write about. That always seems to be my problem. I feel compelled to write something, then I take the time to actually sit down and do it and I can’t even imagine where to begin.

Maybe it’s because my brain is always filled with a Bazillion ideas! Or maybe it’s because I’m not a good writer..(we will find out in due time). Don’t you think its funny that I want to be a writer but I never write anything down…ever? Why do I feel so drawn to actually be a writer anyways? Because of the paper I wrote when I was 12 in Miss Walkers class. (She said I had great potential). Is it because I love to look at a blank sheet of paper and let loose and allow ideas to flow out to the point where when I put my pencil down, it miraculously makes sense…Sometimes.

The list of questions are endless. The list of answers however… Nonexistent.

I would love for someone to come up to me and just slap me right in the face and say, “Parker, just give up. You suck. You will never be successful at this”. Maybe then I would at least feel some sense of…comfort.(If that is even the right word). At least then I would know to move on with my life. Switch majors at this incredibly overpriced university, and try something else. Then maybe this overwhelming doubt that hovers over me every day will finally just up and go away.

Deep down though. I want to be a writer. I have to be. Something about it just captures me. Maybe its the interviews? The gathering of information. Going in with nothing and coming away with a vision. Maybe its the whole process. Sitting down with these questions and answers and a blank sheet in front of you. The only way i can think of to describe is that it must be how artist feel. With all of their oil paints ready, their brushes all out and ready to be picked by their master. The canvas begging to be used. The way the artist gently dips the brush into the red paint and delicately strokes the canvas until the finished product is so amazing, so genuine and creative that the artist can’t do anything but smile.

Ya, maybe that’s it. Or maybe it’s the due dates? Ohhh the due dates! How i Loathe and Love them in the very same breath. The pressure you feel when your under the gun in the closing hours in indescribable. If you are lucky enough to actually pull it off and finish in time, the sense of accomplishment is unmatched by any other.

So i guess the question still lingers. Why do I want to be a writer?

I guess the only answer I have isn’t really all that complicated. It’s actually quite simple.

I write… because I love it.

If you took time to read this, thank you.

Until next time,
Parker

Seek Ye First?

parkerb005 — Tue, 05 Jan 2010 20:26:05 +0000

As i sit here staring at this blank screen thinking of something important and groundbreaking to say to you guys, I picked up this book I am reading called “Quiet Strength” by Tony Dungy. I am only halfway through it and would highly recommend it to anyone regardless of their football knowledge. The book takes you through the life of Super Bowl champion coach Tony Dungy.

For those that don’t know, Tony Dungy is probably one of the most faithful people in the world. He always seeks Gods will first in every situation. Without revealing too much of the book, Tony is faced with a life changing situation numerous times throughout the book. While I would more than likely ask my parents or friends for guidance, Tony holds to Matthew 6:33. Matthew 6:33-But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. He doesn’t just do this once in the book, nor does he only seek the kingdom of God because he thinks he will get what he’s praying about. Tony does it time after time, getting what he prayed about or not.

I may be different from most of you, (maybe not)but this is how i thought it was suppose to go down. When I prayed to God when I was little, I thought that if God didn’t give me what I prayed about He didn’t answer my prayer. Yes, this might sound idiotic but I thought if we just simply asked God for something He was liable by prayer to give it to me. This is just not the case. God answers EVERY prayer, the answer might not always be the one we want, but it is answered. It might even take forever to be answered but it will be answered. This might be discouraging to some and even cause some to take situations into their own hands, but Tony never sees it this way. This is evident countless times when Tony always turns to God and thanks him despite the outcome. Perfect example, wether his team wins their game or not, he always has a team prayer and thanks God for everything that he has done.

This is more than encouraging to me. It gives me the courage to do the same when faced with a situation to just pray about it, and leave it in Gods hands. If the situation turns out unfavorable, I still give thanks to God for everything. Again i highly recomend this book for anyone regardless of their football knowledge. Football was just a way for him to share his testimony.

Until next time,
Parker

2010. New Year. New Things.

parkerb005 — Fri, 01 Jan 2010 21:02:49 +0000

With the new year finally upon us, thoughts of the previous year fill my head. While most of these are good memories, I however cannot ignore the bad ones. Yes, some of these bad memories were out of my control. However, some were due solely to my actions and that does not sit well with me. So this year I want to make an effort to have less bad memories by changing things that I do. I have high hopes for 2010. I will finish my Sophomore year at OC (hopefully. Fingers crossed). I hopefully will be starting my career, and last but certainly not least, I will be turning the big 21. Yes, I know. I’m scared too.
With all the expectations and hopes of 2010, I want to make the most of it. I want to make this the best year to date. If God blesses me with another year that is.
Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

TIll later,
Parker

Thanksgiving drawing near

parkerb005 — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 06:17:39 +0000

With thanksgiving drawing near, many things enter my mind that I am thankful for. First and foremost I am thankful to have such an amazing family and without them I would literally be no where. I am thankful for the friends that I have, each and everyone of my friends brighten my day and keep me going! I would also like to thank my girlfriend for being the person she is, she is so awesome and I am lucky to have such a great girl in my life. I am also thankful for God allowing me to live each and every day. I am truly blessed beyond all measure. Thank you for everyone in my life and allowing me to be in yours!

What are yall thankfull for?

So confusing!

parkerb005 — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 20:08:13 +0000

Ok since I got this thing i have been messing around with it and i am completely and utterly confused. I have no idea how to post a picture in a blog, or change my picture thing (even if i have a picture thing). I see other peoples background has pictures of them and is all nice and cool looking and all organized …ya i have no idea how to do that. I might be in over my head as of now. Anyone out there wanna lend a helping hand and let me know what the heck to do?

The Journey Begins…

parkerb005 — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 18:19:06 +0000

So I decided to do this because I have always wanted one, and i saw Jordan’s and thought it looked cool…so here i am. Hopefully this thing will evolve as we go about this journey. Ill try my best to keep this thing updated as much as possible.

BTW…I hate class. Just gonna throw that out there.

DGS